quick update ?

gone missing for the last few days ? lol x.x working hard at UPASS & a lil textbook shopping.
anywhos, other than that. takuto-kun. uhm. that was random much. lol.

OH i watched post grad the other day with tk, irwin, vincent, peter, brother, lmao. 5 guys watching a chick flick. n it was TK's choice. lmao. tho i kinda wanted to watch district 9 , everyone was recommending it to me.

mm today, there was a temple meeting, which i left early from. n went to watch PONYO with ameelia. I LOVED IT . ABSOLUTELY. It's definitely making my re-watch ten times list. as soon as i dl it, it's going on my itouch ! my gosh . lol must must must watch !

mmm. banff trip is sounding kinda lame. i mean i'm excited, but i found out we're leaving 9am .. instead of the usual EARLY EARLY time. i was actually hoping to wake up early :P . so lame -___-. hopefuly we still get lots of time to enjoy our stay there. n no spiders or waht nots in the hotels. and hopefully good weather ! PRAY FOR GOOD WEATHER.

anyway, MEL CLOTHES ARE HERE, tho i din't get no clothes, just ... tights. but SWEET. excited. lol (: there goes another 45$ . gosh.

or well no ... i din't spend THAT much. anyway. i think i wanna order more. lmao im so bad. i can barely wear what i have. i wanna go showppping tho ! my gosh > < hehehe.

ANYWAY. i'm outs.

lazy blogger

yar, been lazy to blog lately. but doesn't mean nothing happened. tons happened since my bday well not really. but vich put me thru therapy today. and hopefully when the time comes to spill, it'll work out. ugh.

i really dread it but i have a bunch of other things to worry about. like i dread upass. i wonder if mel's gonna make her shift o_o. wel it's a at SUB tomorrow. hopefully it's not TOO busy. eeks > < but it's a short shift. so it should go by pretty fast.

sometimes i wish so badly that i could meet ppl that i met online. i know it's kinda dumb. but i wish things were more possible sometimes.

kay i don't wanna blog. i'm gonna get a good night sleep later n not think about anything . hopefully.

n ETS transit better be good tomorrow. it was fun catching up with TK tonight. x) good to have ya back ! and thanks for hte souveneir (:

...sleeps...

pwincess for a day ~

HAPPY BDAY TO MEEEEEE ~ hehehehe. (:

the night started out with a 2 hour wait ... because i took a friend's word for it and she said you couldn't rsvp... but i think u can x.x stupid me. oh well the wait wasn't that bad imo, it was long, but i enjoyed it cuz i got to bond with everyone (:

dinner was fun xD n long. i just wanted to say THANKS AGAIN !!!! to everyone ~ I LOVE YOU ALL, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST <333333333.>

lastly, we chilled at ej's house.

emotional breakdown in the car ride x.x whoah o_o i don't even know what happened. gratefulness? mommy hug thing? the stress from him? UGH, think it was a lil of everything. but thanks AC & DB (and for the goodies n dinner) for being there at that time xDDDD. totally neeeded those hugs. keep them coming plox xD i think i just need to get it all out > <

pictures tomorrow. way too lazy. tiramisu cake was good. but filling.

...love you all...

raining for the sky

why am i raining for the sky, this is ridiculous. this is not my job. what's wrong with me x.x . . .
emo much eh? why does the cup of water look half empty, when really it's half full ... or so i wish to believe.

i'm so stupid sometimes, just so stupid. what an emotionally unstable day, don't even know why i'm crying or mebe i do? heh, mebe it's all those bottled up tears that were just waiting to get out, woot. let them run free T_T ... not start, stop start stop. ugh . did i fall already? hard n fast. i can't even make sense of what i'm saying anymore.

baka is i.
...turn that frown upside down...

scissors go kacha kacha kacha ~

IBG ~ teeheehee. ameel said i should cut it short, so I DID !
i prepared all the pictures of hebe tian i could find, and walked to vicky's house (haircut place). of course, i cannot compare to hebe, SHE'S TOO KUTE > < *jealous*

oh before that, i took a shower this morning, n was bidding farewell to my hair, (click for bigger views)

when suddenly! i found a kute hairstyle (: ... enjoying what was left of my hair > <

finally came home and horded away with the pictures ... the bangs are so short, but IT WILL GROW BACK, i reassure you. just give it a week or two -__- ..

now to grow it over winter. hmm DO I LOOK 19 years old now ?!?!?! lol.

in other notes, ugh =/ upass shift starts next week. but i got an email from nursing (talk bout school haunting me -__- ) n i have to book an appointment for a safety screening test, to test my skills? since i've been out of clinical for a year. =/ sigh* hope all goes well ~

...RO TIME...

ARGHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~
does not want to think anymore ...

...sigh...

edmonton transit = sucky day

SO, sleep in . well not really. took awhile to get ready, BUT, ran for the bus, caught the 16. n the bus pulls a no show at castle downs. lamee -.- ... so had to make dad drive me all the way to school for a crap upass orientation. i'm very confused by how they are doing the "already in" this year. anyway, we'll see when it happens. but other than that. the ice breaker.. was okay. IT'S OVER that's all that matters.

MAN. i'm so tired. haven't been sleeping well lately. but the short roadtrip is confirmed today. it's gonna be next weekend. so i guess i'm spending my bday here. hopefully can gather the girls out for a nice dinner. n ... resolve some issues ... that i really don't want to face. y do i always get myself into these messes -___- ..

the friend still hasn't talked to me yet... or mebe he's just busy. i dunno. but i left him some really long blurbs that i hope he got. ... tis all i could do. =/

REALLY excited (: ameel !!! off we gooo
n hopefully everyone will reply fast, so i can spend friday night having dinner with all those friendlies !

OMG OMG OMG OMG. today. this man came and sat by me in SUB o_o . n was like "ni hao." i was so scared. lol
...folds cranes...

usual swim day

so the past few days, haven't done much, just like about 9 hours of an RO party with a pizza break in between at ameel's. n trouble sleeping last night. hahaha.

bought a new mouse today . well two, but i dint' like the other so i thnk i'll stick with the kensington one, even tho the other is PINK, oh well. anyway, here's a pic of my cranes that i'm starting to make. inspired by Slyver/squee (im sorry), i wanna make 1000 cranes, n see if i know 1000 ppl, write one for each person ^^

BURNING FLAMES III IS OFFICIALLY OVER, AND SO GOOD ! ^^
time to play RO, gonna play a bit before i sleep. here's some pics tho.
oh and went swimming with the cousins tonight, which was fun ^^

mun gao wanted to be in all the pictures

carly insisted grandma/mickey was in the pics

i wanted to play on my webcam

another mun gao series (:

n they really loved pitato's pooh bear (: which they renamed as baby bear ! so kute

i love hugs because it's something i always longed for from family. envious of how ameel's mommy always goes "bao bao". so if u got free hugs to offer, GIMMIE ! ^^
i swear, i better get some sleep tonight -___-
...RO time...

just a note ...

i'll be updating later.

i just feel really bad right now ... n hope things will patch up, tho i shoudln't be asking for any forgiveness. but ... i don't want to lose another friendship ... mar. so dumb x.x ...

story in progress

just wanted to post ... my story that im writing, that's still in progress. it din't move much, cuz i just recently changed it to third person mode, so it might seem kinda funny odd in some parts. anyway i don't know how to post this, so i'm just testing this out..

Story123 Third

change of plans

instead of reviewing today . . . ended up accompanying mom to the doctors n buying groceries n food (: at T&T. aside from that, drove brother to his friend's house and picked him up at night, which caused me to miss America's next top model. -____- ..

anywhos. that WAS MY DAY. pretty much. n so jealous of my child who got to see the meteor shower, and didn't even call me to see it. geez.

hm i have to call the upass people tomorrow, n ask mom if we're actually going away next weekend. eeks > <>

other than that, elaine told me that there's a china version of "meteor garden" (hana yori dango/boys before flowers), lol like WOW. a china version. anyway, so far on episode 3. the people are not as good looking, well they're okay .. but i don't like hua ze lei's look. he's the ugliest. -__- .

so far, it's okay. the story's a lil bit different but yea.
ANYWAY,
...watch away...

are you okay? are you choking?

so i felt like i din't get much sleep last night. . . but woke up this morning, watched my episodes, n mopped the floors.

rotted around till about 3ish, showered, took a nap. or tried to at least. then made some fried rice, and was andi arrived around 520 n off we were to pick up siaw. we made it just in time for first aid class. or well it's HCP - CPR renewal course.

even though it's 3 hours, it moved pretty quickly, with a lot of hands on practice, i think i was doing it weird this time, cuz my wrist hurts now. haha oh well, pass the test with my 100% (: haha i know nerd. but really the exam is easy peasy. anywhos, it is fun. haha

back home now, n headaching about what to do for my bday. i just wanna spend it with the really close friends, out in sun, n then perhaps dinner or something.

OR if mommy/daddy wanna take me to drumheller or somewhere anywhere, i wanna bring a friend or two along. mebes, if we get to go. i just wanna go away for awhile. i wanna go poof.

i kinda wanna see him the night he comes back too. i just want to be told everything will be okay.
just that one day. my one special day, i just want everyone to tell me that everything will be okay. n not have to worry about a single thing till the next morning. i want like ... all the hugs i can get ! lol (:

not in the mood to plan tho. so we'll pull something last minute, somehow. EJ won't even be here, so that's already a bummer.
having a summer bday, isn't always that great. anyway, siaw got us souveneirs (: SO LOVELY, thanks. now i can make my origami roses again ^^
...goodbye...

a last minute day

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING, n it was already 1230 -___-. so i call andi up and see what she's doing on her day off. heading to wem with her sister. I WANNA GO. haha

tho, my original plans were to clean the house, but then ... it was already so late in the afternoon haha. so i finally got ready, invited vicky, n we headed off to wem. there was a so it was jammed. got there around 2ish. we split up, huge accident,vicky n me, michelle n andi .

there weren't any cool sales or anything. so we just got some bbt, n eventually headed home. it was still jammed, there was a biker in the accident. i din't watch the news, so i dunno wat happened. but it din't look so good.

watched an ep of burning flames, n started the new show "you're hired" like it (:

starting to try and get organized for the last few weeks of summer.
the plans ... vicky wants to go waterpark this saturday, since yvonne has it off. i do too (: so let's try to get that in action.
too bad andi has work and can't go.

photoshoots, RO parties ? hopefully we get everything in before school. i'm like SUPER lazy to plan right now -___-. or do anything. even for my bday lmao. i wanna gather with the close ones, but i have no idea what to do. i don't feel like doing much. lmao well i do. just lazy to plan it. haha we'll see. i just have one wish, n that's for the sun to be shining from 12am to 1159pm on my birthday (: , that in itself, is enough to make me happy.

tomorrow is tidying day... looking forward to it actually. well, the feeling of the cleanliness after it, at least (:

...wants to talk to EJ...

boys before flowers ~

perhaps it should be flowers before boys. i love ga hui in it. she's so kute. or ga eui . i should think it's spelt. anywhos.

i haven't posted in . . a day or two. hm. well in the past day(s), i've been venting & listening to other ppl vent, then there was also RO.

oh saturday, was temple, then swimming with dylan, vicky, damien, michy, john, and ameel (: n myself of course. man i love the water. to even just float around in it (: it's like all the thoughts and worries, just wash away. n i'ts peaceful. oh so peaceful. tho i din't really thing the hot tub was warm enough. but yea. it was a good swim day indeed. we were all exhausted and headed over to ameel's house, in which vicky entertained the little ones, n dylan, mich, and i cuddled n slept in the "fortress". *cough*

HOWEVERS. ameel n my child, lyndon, have an official business card now ! (: for their photography business ^^ woot. sounds like fun. can't wait to do our best friend shoot. andi and me (:

anyway, i think with the week of temple over, i can finally start to do some reviewing for school. seeing how im taking first aid tuesday night. other than that. i should get planning on our goroup events that we probably want to be happening before school gets busy again > <>

ANYWAY, today i went to temple, home then temple then home then picked up dinner n home. haha in the process of all it. i also am on a boys before flowers marathon, trying to finish it all tonight! n .. finished folding what's left of my stars. ..

anywhos,
...continues watching...

one of those slow days ...

OH ! a note.. for PC users, i have no idea why it is showing as all CAPSLOCK for you guys. . . -__-

finally, burning flames ep 25 is up. so i was hoping to go get my glasses fixed today, but noo... din't happen haha.

anyway, it's another one of those slow days, yesternight the parents went out to timmy's, which i really wanted to go home -___-... but i din't drive so gar. i got chicken noodle soup, but still i had a bad tummy ache, and was exhausted. from what... i dunno o_o . from being lazy i suppose ><

man summer really makes me lose track of time, well since i'm not doing much. lol so bad.
this morning, the UPS man came, n i thought, WHOAH a package ... but nope it wasn't for me. =.= ... almost thought i ordered something n forgot, or that it was from pitato. but haha it was dad's remote thing for his kylintv or w/e.

so i watched 5 episodes of boys before flowers today before i was lazy to wait for internet to load properly, n gave up. it's good (: it's like season 1 n 2 combined. i guess the taiwan (meteor garden) one just stretchedd it out super long. which was entirely unneccesary.

EJ'S GETTING AN IPHONE. lucky bum. i wanna go shopping so bad. i wanna buy my macbook pro case (: MMMmm. EJ let's go wem !!! it was so fun last time. (:

even tho my special day is approaching, i don't feel it. lol mebe i'm dreading the fact of turning 2-, even tho ... it doesn't really matter, i mean it's not gonna feel any different. lmao.

but i shall be finishing my shopping at so-adorkable ! n heading to temple tonight again.
shiz... first aid on tuesday. or well CPR renewal. hahaa.

k well i wanted to keep this short n sweet. so g'bye.
...feeds self...

shop shop shop ~

SO, start off a late day by heading to chinatown and having lunch. after a quick lunch, mom, dad & me make our way down to ikea on the search for my closet curtains. sadly they didn't have a lot of choices, but instead we got new pillows & 99cent pillow cases (: which mom insisted on stocking up on.

OH YEA, n i bought "booleaf", that's what i named my spiral bamboo (: (lazy to fix the pics together, so here's all i got)

after ikea, i, of course wanted to take the chance to shop around south edmonton commons a bit, since i've never really did before. so i thought i could use my espirit gift card, which apparently i can't at the outlet, but even so, grabbed a couple cheap tanktops for myself, and mom got 2 tshirts, and got bro 2 tshirts as well. we dropped by the nike factory, spring (they ran out of the shoe size i wanted), then over to aeropostale (din't have the white shortshorts i wanted... so i got a diff one instead), n then addidas store, town shoes, n lastly h&m, which wasn't having no sales.

it was a quick shopping day cuz mom was tired and we still had to come home for the temple emperor luong's ceremony at night. grabbed some dinner from t&t, and came home n ate it.

there was a bigger turnout tonight for the temple thing, fong was drumming, sideline was jien, then vicky , me , n john. went by pretty quick.

today was also the new start of our operation 365, check it out. but because it takes a lot of managing, n ppl backed out, which is a good/bad thing, there are only 3 of us, jien, ameel & myself. so hopefully this one holds up (:

anyhows, just wanted to do a quick touch in. i'm heading to bed soon cuz i have the lame upass interview tomorrow, i don't understand WHY we need the interview when we did the job last year -__-. i hate interviews.

but i will finishing burning flames ep 23, then head to bed.
i may/may not be going to seattle in late september with the parents, i wanna meet toony (: , but... its only for a weekend, n it's gonna be jampacked for time, i believe. so ... we'll see. oh well. one day, i'll get to meet toony, just .. gotta be more patient i guess.

...craving bbt...

yesternight family talk ~

LOL, just a short blurb. so last night, was talking to my child last night ^^ n man, thanks for listening, child. haha it's like you could relate so well. haha our love problems are SO SIMILAR haha. with some "slight modifications" as he calls it lmao. but pretty much the same ~

let's hope that w/e happens next, it's for the better similar lol ~

perhaps, it's time to re-set priorities in life ... n place family, friends, fun n school as number 1 @ this time... (lol, fun n school... kinda ironic hahaha kiiiidding)

...dreaming for better days...

heritage days + awesome dinner fun talks (: g'times.

omg. so another less sleep night. listening to chew's issues. haha. anyway HERITAGE VOLUNTEER TODAY... even tho i only volunteered for one day only this year, it was stil crazy busy on the last day and very fun (: . met some cool people... lol. n omg the lines were crazy this year tho.. i mean the system kinda changed with the food servers in the back, i mean we still made it work, but it was a lot more crowded and harder for the volunteers to move. and really, the customers couldn't really see the food ~

aside from that, after ... nobody showing up for shift change, but still having 10 volunteers on shift, andi, me, elaine, n her sis ditched. n went to have some fun of our own.
there was a lot of waiting at first.
N SADLY, no pictures .
i got to see a lot of ppl which was cool (:

but sadly, well not that sad, but instead of chilling with the bff, i chilled with yvonney ! n yar. met .. some of her friends. n ... stuff. lawl.

THEN, finally, after a whole day of looking for people, and people being losers, finally met up with jien, vicky thems.

hopped on the bus to calder, WHERE PPL KEPT BUDDING OUR LINE, n then the ANG parents n the 7 kids went out for dinner (mel, fong, vicky, yvonne, me, jien, peter) @ good buddy. where we had countless laughs talking about random stuff.. including ...
"election time, bum pimples, philipinos, temple, translation corrections, lazy people, my gullibleness, singers, n the list goes on..."

indeed, the dinner of good laughs. haven't had that in awhile. i'm glad i opted out in going to my cousins for this night, cuz it was relaxing and fun (: . apparently, my cousin asked my parents about whether i was dating ... n my long distance aunt from brunei called the other day. n of course both my parents blabbered. =____= ..... whatever, at this point, i don't care anymore.

ANYHOWS. finally, the night ends with going home, showering, and a kute episode of burning flames III. WITH ANDI RUINING IT ALL NIGHT, AS SHE WATCHED IT OVER THE FONE -__-.

anyhows. i'm tired, i think i'll turn in.
not even gonna bother bolding stuff.
i hope sylver can get a goodnights rest soon ~
one day ... the stars will shine ~
...sighs good n bad...

uber bored atm ~

BORED ! nobody's on . my goodness.

does it actually take the process of knowing something's not there, before you realize that maybe that something wasn't as bad as you thought?

n sometimes, i think it's easier to adapt to things than you really thing. before you know it, you have already adapted and gotten use to having that special someone present in your life, whether, you have a gazillion complaints about them or not... i guess that's how arranged marriages tend to work out in the olden days.

hm. anyway, today was another full core temple day, TOMORROW, is heritage days (: the last day, but we're volunteering tomorrow. free food ~ haha so asian i am. i hope the SUN shines all day.

pitato owes me a picture of TOON SPENCER... geez. but i guess he's been busy.
anywhos. i shall be making dinner now -.-
...starves...

exhaustion ... good exhaustion

indeed an exhausting day. have been feeling kinda bloated lately, but aside from that, probably haven't been getting enough sleep, as i quote vicky "your eyes are so black!" lol during swimming.

AND, i don't like being questioned and made to think first thing in the morning when i wake up. geez ...

anyway ~ so not getting a fully goodnight's sleep, well i still got like 5 hours or so, but it's just the fact that i sleep late that makes me feel restless -__- . i head off to temple by noon, and they start praying. MAN, it's hard to sit still in a chair for that long, then again, i have mostly 3 hour long classes at uni. lol

but still, i was tired and restless, so i just wanted to go home n sleep. by the end of the ceremony, none of us were paying attention, i was on my itouch, and vicky on her phone, jien on his iphone. which created the product below...

after leaving the temple, the parents said they were going to heritage days, but i opted out because it looked like it was going to rain... when i dropped vicky off, she insisted we go swimming, i figured, it would help me sleep.. so we headed off to the pool.

she was lazy to swim her lap, so we said, let's just go. (she's 12, so she's suppose to swim one lap to go deep end). she was quite angry when the lifeguard decided half an hour later (that we were in the deep end) to ask us our age... n made her swim her lap lol.

then we were trying to sit on the bottom of the deep end, and she went down too hard and scraped her knee on the tiles at the bottom... we got a bandaid n all ... but o_o the lifeguard didn't do a very good job of putting it on .. it kept falling off -.- ... n then .. why dont' they have WATERPROOF bandaids in a swimming pool ?! kind of ridiculous.

the lifeguard walked by again, and vicky was like "it's falling off..." she responded "it's the stickest bandaid we have..." n then proceeded to take down Vicky's name and number for paperwork o_o .

anyway, ate some takeout food. n ready to play some RO, but i think i will definitely pass out early tonight.
...poof...